she thinks i think of God as only a bit greater than dad...
she think i am not ready to think of Him as much more than that right now (while readily admitting that it's only her opinion)...
she assures me that God will only take what i give Him. He won't fight me for more than i offer. so i have the control - what an nteresting concept... i wish He would take more than i offer because i'm scared that i won't be able to give enough to Him. i wish He would just grab me and shake me to my senses!

i think she's right...i can't give Him much more than nothing right now...