what motivates you?
why did you get up this morning?
why are you here (on the earth)?

this was the focus of chapel yesterday. i realized that what motivates me is the fear of failure. that's why i work hard and also why i get stressed and frustrated so easily. it makes sense then that i only go to God when i'm close to failing at something.

i wish i could say this was not the case. i say i am a christian and supposedly rely on God for everything and am here on earth for the purpose of glorifying Him. hopefully someday...