most of my friends have no idea how much i'm struggling right now. yet they continuously encourage me just when i need it. tonight i can think of five times that i explicitly needed some lifting up. four of those times, i'm certain they had no clue of how i was feeling, but they helped me out in just the right way each time. two hugs and two "love you zippy"'s. (the fifth time i subconsciously didn't give the friend a chance to respond.) i'm extremely lost, but i was definitely encouraged tonight. with the help of those surrounding me, this too shall pass...