my multimeter is now named dale...because it works with chips. beth came up with it - she's brilliant! :)

the only constant thing i could hear was the faint whur of the highway. i could see the stars. geese squawked every few minutes. water lapped against the dock i was laying on.

on friday night, i had the opportunity to experience silence. i definitely need more of it in my life. all i could say to the friend who brought me was "wow." i don't know how else to describe what i was feeling...

i am 56.8% nerd :)

i don't know if you know who you are...

i wanna be there when you're feeling high
i wanna be there when you wanna die
i'm gonna light your fire
gonna feel your flame
i wanna be there when you go insane
i wanna be there when you're feelin' down
and i'll be there when your head is spinnin' round
...
i wanna be there til the end

...

and i've got so much to give
if you'd only let me in
i'm gonna take the time to show you i'm a friend

...

i wanna be there in the pouring rain
i wanna be there when you call my name
i'm gonna light your fire
gonna feel your flame
i wanna be there when you go insane
i wanna be there when i'm outta town
and when your whole damn world is crashing down
...
i wanna be there til the end

  -- blessid union of souls


i want to hear how your day went, no matter how bad it was. not because i'm nosey, but because i care and i enjoy talking with you. even without trying, you're an encouragement to me everytime i'm around you. your relationship with God is amazing and you have an incredible love for those around you. pardon the cliche, but thanks for being you!

i just don't understand. it's the type of confusion that only God can clarify. (i guess a bit of it could be cleared up by a little communication with an individual, but the time isn't right for that yet.) i'm getting tired of waiting for understanding and i'm running out of patience. (God give me patience and give it to me now. :) ) i'm stressing out about all this stuff and no relief is coming. either God is silent or i'm not listening properly. which is it? how will i know? if i am listening in the wrong way, how should i do it differently? bah...