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10.08.2003

wow, i am incredibly wired right now. i haven't felt this good in a long time. i wish i could feel like this on command. it usually happens when i get little to no sleep and don't have time to relax / fall asleep during the day...i got 4.5 hours of sleep last night and this is basically the 1st chance i've had to sit at my computer. my friends are telling me they've never seen me like this...

it's so good to be alive!!

so, last week i read something that was really cool. it was talking about our purpose in life. the author said it was to glorify God. but what does that really mean. glorify is one of those words that we toss around waaaay too much without understanding it. anyways, she said that we "are to live in such a way as to give all of creation a correct opinion or estimate of who God is." (Lord, i want to know You, p 12) we are all that some people see of God. we exist to demonstrate our Creator to them. kind of puts life into perspective...

someone read another excerpt to me today that furthered this point. one of my friends told me this summer that society often rails on guys because they lust after women. but no one picks on women for lusting after this lust. it's so true - we want guys to be attracted to us. this always made me a little ashamed because it seems so conceeded. the excerpt is from wild at heart, which i've been told i need to read. anyways...i hope the few excerpts of this text does it some justice...

i've often noticed that so often our word to boys is don't. don't climb on that, don't break anything, don't be so aggressive, don't be so noisy, .... but God's design -- which he placed in boys as the picture of himself -- is a resounding yes. be fierce, be wild, be passionate. now, none of this is to diminish the fact that a woman bears God's image as well. the masculine and feminine run throughout all creation.

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after years of hearing the heart-cry of women, i am convinced beyond a doubt of this: God wants to be loved. he wants to be a priority to someone. how could we have missed this? from cover to cover, from beginning to end, the cry of God's heart is, "why won't you choose Me?" it is amazing to me how humble, how
vulnerable God is on this point. "You will...find me," says the Lord, "when you seek me with all your heart" (Jer. 29:13). in other words, "look for me, pursue me -- i want you to pursue me." amazing.

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the reason a woman wants a beauty to unveil, the reason she asks,
do you delight in me? is simply that God does as well. God is captivating beauty. as david prays, "one thing i ask of the Lord this is what i seek: that i may...gaze upon the beauty of the Lord" (Ps. 27:4). can there be any doubt that God wants to be worshipped? that he wants to be seen, and for us to be captivated by what we see? as c.s. lewis wrote, "the beauty of the female is the root of joy to the female as well as to the male...to desire the enjoying of her own beauty is the obedience of eve, and to both it is in the lover that the beloved tastes of her own delightfulness."     --p 35-37

wow, how do i even respond to that... God is so wonderful!!