another quick entry with no thought involved...

~If quitters never win, and winners never quit, who came up with, "Quit while you're ahead"?

~If a bus station is where a bus stops, and a train station is where a train stops, why do I have a work station on my desk?

~If the folks at the psychic hotlines were really psychic, wouldn't they call you first?

~If you spend your day doing nothing, how do you know when you're done?

~If you're cross-eyed and have dyslexia can you read correctly?

~What do little birdies see when they get knocked unconscious?

~What was the best thing before sliced bread?

~What's another word for synonym?

~Why are we afraid of falling? Shouldn't we be afraid of the sudden stop?

~Why aren't there bullet-proof pants?

~Why isn't phonetic spelled the way it sounds?

~Since light travels faster than sound, is that why some people appear bright until you hear them speak?

~Why do banks charge you a "non-sufficient funds fee" on money they already know you don't have?

~War doesn't determine who's right, just who's left.

~Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

~Why do kamikaze pilots wear helmets?

~Why are there Braille signs on drive-up ATM's?

~Why does your nose run and your feet smell?

(from bored.com)

excerpts from prof quotes

The tech guys are over there, as we speak, administering mouth-to-mouth to the university server.
  ~Anne Middleton, English 150, University of Calfornia, Berkeley

Its ok, you can move to the front. I won't bite, the faculty won't let me.
  ~Nick Clulee, Intro to World History, Frostburg State University

Being the great mathematician that I am, you know what I did... I looked in the back of the book.
  ~Dr. Laramore, Circuits 2, Cedarville University

I could lie and say I need 30 [textbooks] but the people at the bookstore know I'm lying and so will adjust the number so they don't have extra. So I have to adjust my lie so they will not adjust the order the same.
  ~Dr. Voisey, HIST 376: Canada 1900-45, University of Alberta

We're going to talk about almost nothing in this chapter that the author thinks is interesting.
  ~Dr. S. Cummins, Business ethics and law, University of Arizona

So, in the beginning, sophists used people's religious convictions to swindle them out of money. It was the first form of televangelism really.
  ~Dr. Peter Lawler, Ancient Political Philosophy, Berry College

They used to sleep ten hours a night in the old days. There was no electricity back then, so what the Hell did they have to do?
  ~Dr. Michael Denner, Intro to Russian, Stetson University

Making an A in this course is like falling off a log -- while intoxicated.
  ~Dr. Hall, Intro to Logic, Stetson University

Ok, I have figured out what is wrong with the lab. After all my years of doing this I have learned that the success of science in the lab is indirectly proportional to the amount of rock and roll being played. That is why your experiments are failing...we need a radio."
  ~Chris Petrie, General Chemistry I Lab, Brevard Community College

Op Amps solve all the world's problems
  ~Dr. SanGregory, Electronics, Cedarville University

how do i continuously allow one person to negatively rule my thoughts? so what if he is someone who, by definition, was supposed to love me? so what if he caused me alot of pain? why do i let those memories eat at me? all of the other struggles in my life are dwarfed by this one. i'm getting really tired of it...

on sunday night, i was trying to return a call to my grandfather, but i accidently called him instead. (it had to be somewhere in God's will because i made a series of mistakes i've never made before -- too many times something didn't seem right, but i went along with it anyways...) once i realized what i had done, i froze and eventually managed to hung up. the amount of emotion and memories that came rushing was incredible. i thought i had dealt with alot of it already, but apparently not...

i promised a friend that i wouldn't let the mistakes i made and the fear of him calling me back (now that he has my number...stupid caller id) eat at me. (i'm not quite sure why i was so terrified of him calling me back...it's not like he would have me physically cornered. i could always hang up and turn off my phone. but i was terrified none the less.) i've been successful for the most part, but i haven't been able to get alot of those memories out of my head.

i wish i could just forgive him and be done with it. i thought i had made a few steps forward in the process, but hearing his voice again definitely brought back alot of anger and pain. so i am a few steps back again. probably farther back then when i began.

i want forgiveness to be an ordered checklist. i want to be able to check one thing off, be done with it, and move to the next step. i'm sick of this going forward, then backward business. i might feel like i've fully dealt with a memory, but then am hammered with the pain of that memory the next day. i want some concreteness and logic in this process. and it's annoying and frustrating the crap out of me that i can't find any. bah!

I stand to praise you,
but I fall on my knees
My spirit is willing,
but my flesh is so weak

So, light the fire
In my soul
Fan the flame
Make me whole
Lord you know
Where I am
So, light the fire in my heart again

I feel your arms around me
as the power of your healing begins
Your spirit moves through me,
like a mighty rushing wind

tonight at the swe (society of women engineers) meeting, i was informed by 2 of my friends that they've arranged a marriage for me. not just a boyfriend...a marriage. 1 of them wasn't even going to tell me about it because, in her words, "you don't have a choice, so i was just going to tell you on the wedding day." ironically we had just watched a skit about how to avoid stalkers and nerdy boys in our classes and here they are setting me up with an engineer. the guy definitely has social skills, so i guess the skit wasn't about people like him, but it's still oddly ironic...

it's going to be another 5.5 hr night... i haven't slept more than that since saturday night. as a college student, i should be able to handle it, but i'm having alot more trouble this semester. i finally convinced my mind that, unlike in summer, it now has to think after 5.00. but my body is taking longer to adjust to school. it still wants to go to bed at 11.00 and wake up at 6.30. :-\

homework dilemmas, but not the normal ones...

ok...so i completed all my homework for today. let's not focus on how hard/easy that was to do. instead let's think about how hard/easy it was to turn it in. my first class was fed, state, and local govt at 9.20. before i left my room, i grabbed the only 1" binder i saw. so when i went to turn in my worksheet in class, i realized i had brought the wrong binder. it wasn't a big deal...dr. rothra was fine with me turning it in on wednesday, but i was still very frustrated with myself.

after chapel and lunch i was studying for my electronics 1 quiz. i flipped through all my notes and assignments and knew my homework was there. i did the same with my digital electronics homework just to make sure that was there also. when i got to digital i asked ardith an electronics question. as people were turning in their homework, i grabbed my assignment and turned it in. when i got to electronics, i couldn't find my homework anywhere. because i had both my binders open before digital, i looked through that binder and, lo and behold, my digital homework was there. i had turned in my electronics homework in digital...grrrrrrrrrr. for some reason, dr. (or maybe he's only a mr., i'm not sure) ortiz said we didn't have to turn in our electronics until wednesday. so that was taken care of... after class, i luckily found dr. leiffer (the digial prof) as he was going to a meeting and swapped my homework. so everything worked out fine...it was all just really frustrating...

this is my 5th year of college. as far as i can remember, i have never brought a wrong binder/notebook to class or turned in the wrong homework. and now i made those mistakes 3 (or 2, depending on how you look at it) times in one day!

i think that God in creating man somewhat overestimated his ability.
    --oscar wilde

ok, this is me venting...and just so you know, it won't be one bit cheerful. here i go...

i'm really stinking tired of school. i just want to stay at work - all the freaking time. it's not that things aren't stressful there, but i definitely stay busy enough that i don't have a chance to think about non-work stuff (other than random questions about how school is going, of which my "fine" is an acceptable answer). my boss is getting burnt out because of all the extra hours he has to work now, i wish i could be there to help him out more. my passion is definitely there and i could help him out if only i weren't still in school...

i feel like an absolute idiot in 2 of my classes and sometimes in another one too (but that one's different because it's a liberal arts class - it doesn't matter if i understand it because future classes don't depend on the knowledge i should be learning). digital makes up for some of it. i don't feel like an idiot in there at all - to the point that i'm bored to death, but i'm sure i'll feel like an idiot in there soon enough. don't get me wrong...i know i'm not stupid, but it just feels like everyone else in my classes are a few steps up intelligence-wise. so please don't comment to this by saying, "but zippy, you're smart!" like in so many other things (esp spiritual ones), i know this in my head, but my heart is having trouble grasping it. i just don't feel one bit intelligent right now...

i need a summer break - no work, no classes, maybe even no people (i'm not quite sure about that one though). i know - i did it to myself, so don't even start with "i told you that you should've taken time off from work"...i've heard that enough and yes, those of you who said it, i knew you were right all along. anyways...i'm realizing now more than ever that i have so many issues i need to work out in my life. i feel like God's putting them all in front of me and letting me know that i must deal with them before i can grow at all...in any way. i need some time to figure some of it out without having a mound of homework demanding my attention. i know...i had all summer to do this - i was bored to death most evenings, but i just didn't realize how much was there to deal with. if i'd have known, i would've spent more time on it this summer. honest.

ok...end of long schpeal (i know that's not spelled right...but the online dictionaries aren't helping me). time to continue my homework... :-\